but im no slacker. you cant fault me for not trying. my definition of a slacker is someone who thinks all jobs suck and isnt going to lift a finger. i would happily work sixteen-hours days if only i knew what it is i should be doing. i am what they call, all-too-desperate, to find my song in life. im not like the others my age out there who should be enjoying life and i panicked some time ago when i realised there isnt one (song) out there for me. no, i didnt expect it to be easy. but i sure wanted an answer.

but that was the max long ago. the max now just seems so aimless. i enjoy such a life. sure, but i need a direction in life. i really do. before i fade off into the background and become a nobody.