for that matter, ive yet, given up another chance.

many once asked me whats the best route for them to take, whats in store for them. as much as id like to delude myself and the others by depicting a fairytale, all im capable of is to show them my pathetic lifepath.

sure, they say a picture paints a thousand words. but the fine line between agression and affection is something so misleading. and off we go, to see our marching band. towards the soft string that dangles, we all need our oneway ticket.

and if you can find me a trumpet that talks, ill show you what this is all about.

lifes just a one way street.


in addition to what our beloved always tell us - one door closes, another open. pretty exciting a quote that id definitely second to. however nonsensical it sounds and however cliche it is, im trying all ways just to indulge in it.


it simply means if you dont find happiness here, move on. if you dont get what you want, move on. as much as youd want people to feel for you, they do too. so that practically leaves no one crying for you or your own sad pathetic life. minus the fact that should you get smashed right smack in your face, the angels will all start to tear.


but really, is it worth the sacrifice?
im getting out of the car and telling the rest, theyre all heading in the wrong direction before a collision really occur.

happy birthday.
and yet i dont feel the excitement.


im seventeen. deal with it, life goes on.
anyhow, many thanks to the 743 sms-es you all sent out.
and the bad thing is i didnt get to reply all.
regardless, hearts.